Scattered thoughts...

I'm home!!  I enjoyed a glorious 2 weeks in Costa Rica, loved every minute of it & would go back in a heartbeat...

Sunset off our balcony.

The Howler Monkeys (aka our alarm clock) outside of our room

The chubby hands I missed so much

Loving his still-painted toenails

I'm home. 

I'm grateful...

well hello there strangers...

Yep, we are still here...plugging away. Lots has happened in our lives lately, lots that has made us, well me, Nolan doesn't really re-evaluate when he is only almost 4 years old...but, it has made me re-evaluate everything...and my consensus, well, I'm grateful.  (Wow, that was a run on sentence if I have ever seen one!!)

I'm grateful for so much...I have an amazing Bug (Nolan to those that don't know that Nolan is my Bug, and will be forever and always)...I'm grateful for the random hugs and kisses I get from him...the simple statements, "Don't worry mommy, I always come home to you"...they melt my heart.  I'm grateful for my family, who without them, whoa, who knows in what kind of shape I would be in lately....My Tash, I love her to bits and pieces...she is...well, she is my rock.  *love you to bits*...All of my friends, near and far...In the grand scheme of life, I have it pretty good.  Sure, there are times that I am ready to rip my hair out, or hang Nolan by his ankles, but there are also way way way more times, that we laugh until we cry, and I can sit back and just love.

Thank you to you all...just know that in some way, every single one of you has changed me, (all for the good...I hope, hahaha), and I'm loving this place in my life that I am at...

For once in a long time, we are happy.

Finally, it's getting better.....

Ugh, so much has been going on, but so much that I am NOT going to blog about....life is slowing sorting itself out and taking a turn for the better...FINALLY!!!!

We are still here, and making each other laugh everyday...

I'll be back...

Randoms...

I am: a little sleepy...


I think: way too much!!  about dumb things...I over analyze.

I know: I am loved.

I have: a Bug & a family that I wouldn't give up for the world.


I wish: I never had to worry about money again.


I hate: the feeling of lonliness.


I miss: my sanity.  Where did it go?


I fear: failure.


I hear: myself typing.


I smell: somebody cooking their lunch.


I crave: something salty...good thing I am snacking on corn chips.


I search: to the moon and back to find what I want that makes Nolan and I happy.


I wonder: what my future holds.


I regret: very few things...I can't change it now.


I love: myself....hahahaha...kidding...there are a few people that I would do ANYTHING for, and they know who they are.


I ache: when Nolan is hurting


I am not: co-ordinated, sneaky nor graceful.


I believe: that my life is getting better and better.


I dance: like the white girl I am.


I sing: all the time.


I cry: more in happiness and frustration than ever in sadness.


I fight: for what I believe is right, even if I am fighting alone.


I lose: my patience far too often.  Sorry Bug.


I win: arguments very seldom...never argue with a toddler...you will always lose.


I never: put the dishes away last night...dang it.


I always: enjoy a bubble bath before bed.


I confuse: to, and too all the time.


I listen: in on other people's conversations...teehee


I am scared: that I am not enough to make other people happy.


I need: to relax.


I am happy about: having a home, having a car, and a job, an amazing son...shall I continue??


I can usually be found: playing lego, or building hot wheel tracks.

Still here...

Yep...we are still here...plugging away...

Either our lives are dull....or I have temporarily lost my desire to blog....

Who knows.

3 going on 16

My Darling Nolan,

It has been a long while since I have written a letter to you...but following this morning's episode, I feel like I should...

Let me explain...

I know you love Rosie...

Frankly, I would much rather lose my wallet and have my identity stolen than lose that stupid otter (may I throw out, Thanks Uncle Brad...next time, can you buy him something that he doesn't get so attached to!!!)...

Anyways...while I was standing in the bathroom, trying to make my sleep-wrinkled face look presentable enough for work, which I obviously didn't do very well at (eek!!), you felt as though you needed to smack me with Rosie...Not cool Bug, not cool....Granted, you have pulled out her whiskers, so they no longer feel like litte daggers digging into my skin, but her beady little eyes...yeah, they are marbles...or something of the sort.  Some child safe toy I imagine...

I threatened to take Rosie away....your retort...

"I have more energy, so I can run faster faster faster from you"

Say what???

Granted, you do have more energy...but did you just say that you can run from me??  Oh no you dinnt....I realize I haven't been to the gym in a while...okay a long while...okay, a long long long time....okay okay...i'm sure I would get lost on my way there, I don't know if I still know the way anymore...but really...you don't run from your mom (Mom, I am so so so so so so so sorry if I ever said I can out run you...granted I probably could...Bahahahaha...love you!!)...Mom's always win...don't they...

Anyways...You went and sat on the living room floor while I did my hair. I made the mistake of looking your direction...

"why you wooking at me....?"....

And this part I am not making up, I swear....

I quote....

"Mom...you wook at me, you killing my energy."

W.T.F......

Killing your energy????!!!

No Bug...Killing your energy is when you are 16 and groping your girlfriend and I walk in...killing your energy is when you can't have the car to go on a date...killing your energy is when you come home loaded and barf on my floor, and I make you clean it...with YOUR toothbrush!!!

Killing your energy is not asking you to get dressed.

*sigh*

Sincerely,

Your ever lovin',

ever frustrated,

Mommy

The beast is alive....

And by beast, I mean me....

We have been busy...

Nolan came home...Yay!!...Christmas with the Bourgeois family on New Years Day...Back to work, and tay tare....Tay tare has not been a hit...ugh....mornings suck....trying to get back into the swing of things....

Slowly but surely, we will find our routine again!